I woke up early this morning for no reason really. Maybe I’ve just slept too much this week from being sick. I’ve also been on this strange cleaning kick. Like I’ve actually wanted to clean. I must be sick. I guess people get in moods like that, when they are just sick of all the junk around them. I used to. I think I just got burnt out really fast after the move into the house. Tons of things are left unfinished, and there are still boxes unpacked.
Lately I’ve had this desire to look different, to change my appearance. I asked a friend - given, that was a straight guy friend - if he ever felt like that, and he looked at me like I was crazy. So I’ve grown a beard and let my hair grow out…and I’ve lost almost 10 pounds all in the last couple of months. You’d think that’d quench my feelings…but in reality I just have a sweaty upper lip, more opportunity for bad hair days, and I’m stuck somewhere in between the skinny and fat jeans. So maybe it wasn’t what I envisioned.
Sometimes I hate how intrusive computer programs can be. Right now I’m being barked at to install a new version of Java, and an update for ZoneAlarm. Not in the mood.
So went to a party at a friends house last weekend. I don’t think I mentioned. It was a game night which I’ve always wanted to do, but Mike was never into that idea. But anyhow, it was a little overwhelming because I met tons of new people. All area gay men. Kinda strange that I’ve lived in Findlay most of my life, and never really knew many other gay people. And the ones I did know, I unfortunately dated, or they moved away, or both - hopefully they didn’t move away just because we dated. Side note-I was always attracted to that artsy loser type. But anyhow I had a really good time at the party. Like I’ve been saying, I need to get out more.
