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I’m frustrated…

with work and my overall worth. I ask for something new. I guess that can’t happen. Forget that I have an advanced degree in Computer Science and seniority over most people in my department…

with my dogs. KC decided to walk underneath Sammy while he started pissing. Gross. And Sammy has a new obsession with toilet paper.

with my lack of motivation. It’s about a half hour until Mike gets home. Gonna get shit about not washing the dishes or cleanin up the house. Still can’t bring myself to do it.

with my lack of funds. Since we went on vacation, it seems like I haven’t been able to catch up.

with all the fucking mosquito bites I got from sitting outside moping about all my frustrations.

with my lack of original blog topics. I didn’t used to have many friends. So it didn’t matter what I said. No one would be offended. No one would care. Would anyone now…probably not.

with my stupid diet. I want a god damn donut. Maybe some carrot cake. Mmmm….carrot cake.

with my problems with alcohol. And all the other fucking problems that come with that…

with my ten year high school reunion like next week. Yeah…I’ll go and be the hot mess alone in the corner.

with me turning into a big hermit again because i’m scared of everything….all over again.

I’m frustrated. But you can’t really feel sorry for me….You’re probably frustrated too.

I went to see this movie on Friday. And I actually really liked it. If you were one of those people who were all into the totally confusing conspiracy/mythology arcs of the series…then you may not like it as much as me. I found it to be very classic, spooky, monster of the week like. And those were the ones I always really liked.

Gillian Anderson did an amazing job at bringing Scully back…and even with a little more attitude then I remember. David Duchovny did well too. He had some humorous lines, and brought back his little obsessions…not just with the paranormal…but also his sunflower seeds

Definitely check it out. If you loved X-Files like I did, then you must see this!

I posted a bunch of new links in the side bar. Some of my biggest time wasters. I like to read tons of blogs using Google Reader too. You should really check it out. It’s the most convenient way to read all the important (and not so important) stuff.

I can’t remember if I mentioned…but I’m going to be taking Sammy to obedience training classes starting in August. I wanted to take both the dogs, but I guess that just isn’t possible cause it is one dog per person. Mike has to work, but it would have been nice to take both Sammy and KC at the same time. They both need some work. I guess I’ll try to just practice with both of them at home, and I can always take KC to the next class.

I’ve been walking the dogs separately lately. But actually it seems like less work that way. The dogs are sooo distracted by each other and everything else, that it is so hard to walk them at the same time. But when walking them alone, it seems like I can keep their attention a lot better, and towards the end of the walk they are doing really good and not pulling anymore.

Look at this little surprise I came home to today. Mike adopted an adorable blue ratty friend. Mike thinks it is a boy…but I have my doubts. If it is a boy, Mike said “Pedro”….but I get to name her when he realizes it is a girl. What a cutie!

Ugh. I thought I was a god damn adult. Do adults randomly log into their bank accounts to check their balances and see that they have $8.27? Thank chebus I didn’t decide to stop and get gas…So now I’m pretty much broke for a week. Awesome. I need to start being more responsible.

I’ve been such a hermit lately. The other day I got that feeling that I was that guy….ya know the one who’s a big ol’ hot drunken mess and embarrassing himself in front of all his friends. Probably a typical Friday night with me, right..

Work has sucked. I’m starting to just feel like no one understands me. I’m really struggling between making myself marketable and actually striving to do what I enjoy…Maybe I’m just good at tasks I don’t enjoy, and don’t realize it. (Or maybe just better than other people…..) But maybe I need a change. I’m just going to try to remind those of my real skills and interests at every given opportunity. Or do I already do that? Fuck. I’m screwed.