choke on that causality

Do you ever wake up in the morning and your entire arm is just a big dead lump? Like you slept on it all night and completely cut off all circulation. That has been happening to me a lot lately it seems. Even with my leg too. It’s kinda freaky.

Ugh. Not really looking forward to getting the day started today. I have to catch up on bills and a lot of cleaning and laundry and shit. I’ve really been slacking lately. I used to be way more organized I swear. I think I just need a simple consistent place to put all my bills and I don’t think it would be so damn frustrating every time I digging though the desk or table or coffee table or wherever to find what I need. Yeah seems pretty simple. And it should be. Like I said…slacking… Hey it was my birthday week.

I mentioned the other day that I lost my phone. Thank chebus I had insurance though, cause I was overnighted a new one for only a $50 deductible. I recommend paying the 5 bucks a month insurance to anyone…cause it is worth it. The frustrating thing though about trying to activate and troubleshoot your phone is that you aren’t able to call from your actual phone. You’d think they’d have some sort of chat available for circumstances like that. Nope. Luckily it is all fixed now…I just don’t have any phone numbers anymore….Yes I’m a dumbass for not backing them up. Whatever.

I lost my phone last night. So if anyone is texting me or trying to call…well…not going to work. Hopefully it’ll turn up or I’ll have to go get a new one.

It is a beautiful day. And I’m soaking up some sun with 4 beautiful puppies out on the deck. For as much work as it was, I’m not going to want to give these beagles up when their dads come to get them tonight.

So my bday is coming up in a couple days… It’s hard to believe I’m going to be 28 years old. Actually, no it really isn’t. It just kinda stops mattering after 25.

Well hope everyone is enjoying this great weather like I am.

I’m so sick of cold weather. It’s freaking April already. This shit needs to stop. I suppose it could be worse; there could be snow…

I get to take both Sammy and Makalu to the vet today. That car ride should be fun…since they love each other so much.

My damn computer crashed today and it took seriously like 20 minutes for me to get it started back up, and everything in order like I had it. Ah speaking of everything in order…there is nifty little program that I like to use to help me organize all the windows I use. It’s called Taskbar Shuffle, and it is free! Go ahead and download it. It really kinda makes you wonder why that functionality isn’t already included in Windows…

So I get my big work bonus this week. I’d be more excited about it…if I didn’t know that I’ve already spent it in one way or another…Or at least a lot of it, the rest I figure I will try to save until our big San Francisco trip in June. But ya know I do have a weakness for the Gap and Banana Republic…so I might have to buy myself a few things. Damn Luxe Card…it sucks me in with all it’s free shipping and rewards.

I haven’t really been blogging as much as I used to. Not sure why. I’ve been really busy at work…and with the new puppy at home…I’m just exhausted.

I haven’t had time to think about those little things that I used to notice all the time throughout the average day…kinda sad. Maybe I still notice them….but my memory is completely shot.

My attention span has seemed a little off lately too. Mike will always be talking to me, but I don’t seem to comprehend the words that he is saying, and then I say “What?”, and he repeats himself…but I’m still not listening. It really pisses him off…but I don’t do it on purpose. I guess I’m just distracted a little too easily.

We reserved our plane tickets and hotel for our San Francisco vacation. I think it is going to be really fun. Now we just have to find people willing to take care of our many pets. My dad offered to take the dogs. Mike’s parents wouldn’t mind taking the pigs or the dogs either. The cats might be able to stay here if someone will come over every couple of days and check up.

It’s raining outside. Kinda depressing. And I guess it is supposed to snow tonight. I can’t wait until Spring. Although, I have no clue how to make our landscaping look all pretty. I could probably like clean up all the leaves and trim stuff…but that doesn’t sound like something I would ever want to actually do…So I think I’m going to have to break down and hire someone. Maybe they will be cute. I can dream.

I’m in a really bad funk today, and I can’t seem to pull out of it. This morning, I was off of work, and I decided that I wanted Mike to call around looking for our new puppy that I want for my birthday. He made some calls, but nobody had quite the one we were looking for….but he refused to call anyone else after that, and we got into a big fight and he said he doesn’t want to get another dog now. What the fuck…

I’m destroyed at the moment. I know it seems silly. But I am.